Our Assembly friggin rocks! Can't tell what we are doing but I guarantee it will be great! Starting to love the bubble gum pop! songs. Like David Arculeta and Demi Lovato. Listen to Don't Forget. Damn sad! I like almost cried! I'm gonna put it on my blog now.
I actually couldnt care less about guys now. Pfft! I'ts not even worth it! We came alone, we are leaving alone. we might as well stay alone rite? Yes Rite.
Umm lets see school....
Scared to death about PTC Meeting. Hope I dont have to go! HAHAHA! Faris, Syafiq and Wayne kena from Miss Mayer for misbehaving in BM class. Poor them. Honestly, after all this while hearing Wayne sing, I till don't know how he sounds. The new kid was here today. Ummm Cameron rite Janey? LOL! I tried to play football today. But I sucked. Lunch seemed to be very long today. Thankfully! I dont ever feel like going home anymore. It's such a non-home-like place. School is my forte. I cant help but be who I am around all my totally amazing friends. I guess they accept me for who i am rather than who I could be. I wanna go watch 17 Again on Friday! Cannot wait lah. Not sure if my parents will let though. Anyway I'll just have to ask and see.
Hey hey!
School was so fun tdy! :)
We had to work on our assembly rite, me and Chloe are doing a powerpoint. When we finished we went to go see Vivian play. LOL! Damn fun woi! Miss Mayer asked me to help out ppl.... I cant say hu then everyone will know about our assembly. But it was so fun! Hated coming home though. I really hate home. :( Love school! Ciao!
Hey, Life is great. It just sucks that I didnt notice it earlier. I realise that every tear has it's meaning. Thanks John Mayer for telling me that you can dream with a broken heart, and thats exactly what I'm doing. Free Falling. And boy...it feels pretty darn good. :)
Mark, what the hell where you thinking? That I want to be with you? HELL NO! Me and you make sense? Yes we do! But that doesnt mean I will love you in any way but just a friend. Maybe a best friend. But never more. Can you get that into your thick head? I was just joking. We could be great togather, but obviously we dont see our relationship going as far as they say. OK? Understand? Now....when are you gonna ask me out? LOL! JK JK!
Hey,
Getting over him is soo much harder than I thought it would be. I can't help but feel as though I pushed to hard. It's like they say, Love is like a butterfly, hold it too close and you will crush it. Hold it too loose and it will fade away. I think he is avoiding me. Not texting back, signing out as soon as he realises I'm online. He thinks I'm stalking him. AARRGGH! I made a mistake. Sofia and Mark both said he was no good. Why did'nt I listen? I'll tell you why. In the true words of Kate Winslet:
Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time he does something that tells you he's no good, you ignore it. And every time he comes through and suprises you, he wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she's not for you.
Exaclty. =.=
Here's another one:
Shush. You broke my heart. And you acted like somehow it was my fault, my misunderstanding, and I was too in love with you to ever be mad at you, so I just punished myself! For years! But you waltzing in here on my lovely Christmas holiday, and telling me that you don't want to lose me whilst you're about to get MARRIED, somehow newly entitles me to say, it's over. This - This twisted, toxic THING between us, is finally finished! I'm miraculously done being in love with you! Ha! I've got a life to start living. [Picks up Jasper's jacket, walking to the door]
Even more exact.
Another:
I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms.
So true? Isn't it?
Really good quotes from this movie! This fits me perfectly:
I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.
Why us? Tell me? Why
Why God. WHY? The only reason I went on the trip was to have a great time! And forget about him! Why do you have to put in lovesick people everywhere? In the plane, the bus, on the beach....heck even in the movies? WHY? AAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH. it just made the trip so worthless.
I'm done! I waited for you. We could have been perfect. You had your chance. All the signs proved that you did like me. Well I guess not. You had me for a long time. Heck, you had me at hello. ( yes it sounds very cheesy!) You didn't make your move. You didn't take a chance. Well guess what? You've lost me. I'm gone. I woke up this morning and realised that somewhere along the sorrow filled road I lost myself. I lost Vila. The girl couldn't care less about what everyone else thinks about her. The bubbly, song filled girl. To think some idiotic guy made such a strong girl disappear. I realise now that a guy that isn't even worth it. Yeah. Your not even worth a single tear I cry. So go on. Flirt with those girls you don't have a chance with. All those other girls, yea they are beautiful, but would they write a song for you? NO! I did, and I know now that you didn't deserve it. so you go on. Be happy and when someone breaks your heart, don't come crying to me. Because I don't have a lot of sympathy for assholes. I'm just waiting for that guy who will do things for me, take care of me, offer to help me even when I don't ask for it. Someone who is going to treat me right. As of now, I have more important things to think about. I have grat parents, great friends and a great life. Dont need you messing it up jerk! So bye bye baby! Cuz I'm free of you! And it feels really good!
