Holidays...

Hi...My holidays began and ended with friday nite. Now its back to doing work. According to my dad holidays are over. I felt like saying that it hadnt even started. It sucks having your entire life being planned out for you. My whole life objective is to impress him. But it obviously isnt happening anytime soon. Imagine failing at your life goal. Believe me its damn sad.

Anyway...here is the progress between me and my crush...

Even though we were miles apart and I still know he doesnt love me the way I do.

Still, at the very instant i thought of him. I felt well. Whole.

I could feel my heart racing in my chest the blood pulsing hot and fast through my veins.

The same way it always did when I see him smile.

My lungs filled with the same sweet scent of his skin that for some reason smelt sweeter

with him not there.

It was like the hole he had made in my heart had never existed.

The pain that caused me so much misery and pain. The aching pain!

The hurt around every edge! Nothing ever hurt like it before!

And now at the mere sight of him again everything dissapeared.

I swore I wouldnt let him have that power over me.

All the anger, the hurt, the sorrow vanished!

I was perfect---not healed, but as if there had never been a hole in the first place.

Why???